What I create fails [miserably] to express what is me in any way shape and form.

I am not sharply focused, brightly colored, crisp, flowery, anything remotely sunset-like or even [if you want to be particular] beautiful! So, why is my portfolio peppered with such pieces? Have I given into the system of peppy optimism?

I refuse to turn in this vapid pretty in for even the darkest of cliches...

I am lost in a dark maze, filled with monsters who are after the marrow in my bones.

At the best of times I can strip all away to become a blank canvas. But what do I have to offer then?

My only resolution for 2010 is to be myself, and to actually enjoy it.

Well, to update you all: I am back at school, mostly depressed (for no reason), have started visiting the public library (pretty much obsessively), can't make nearly enough time to do artsy stuff, but had an amazing weekend of creepy photography-ness.

Visited a state park with my University's photography club yesterday and stumbled across this cemetery from the 1800's; most of the obelisks were pushed over, and all the typography was super gothic.

Also, finally got a Flickr account ([link]) ; it's mostly just my sets of hand-made cards yet, but maybe I'll upload some more stuff later. I really don't like how Yahoo owns it, but I didn't want to upload those photographs here, so it was the best option.

Started twittering, mostly just to attract more traffic to my blog and artfire store and stuff ([link]) but it's been a lot more interesting then I thought it would be, and I've found some really interesting links there too.

I also discovered this weekend that more people will view pictures of chard cigarette buts, and waffles, then flowers; so I am changing my subjects accordingly. Expect more edgy and controversial subjects, like my waffle, from here on out!

Ok, maybe not. But I did finally get around to posting some of my projects; still have to photograph my t-shirt projects, but my knitting projects and recycled paper are up, which is a start
My store is here if you wish to be in awe of its graphic prettyness (lol). So far I would really recomend Artfire to anyone out there interested in selling their art; the free package is really nice so far.
I also have high hopes for the yard sale this weekend; freeing myself from a lot of earthly baggage hopefully!

Would I be terminally ill if I wanted to walk into the middle of a forest, build a fort, and live there 'till I keel over dead?
I actually wrote a story about a princess who did just that when I was in the fourth grade, except that she met a prince there and was carried off to eternal happiness. It has been one of the few stories I've actually finished over the years, and I call myself a writer ><!
And yet, here I sit logged into my email, facebook, my art blog, and watching tv. Camping this weekend was so amazing, though, despite my "junior" tent which could barely fit my dufflebag, let alone me. Maybe I could set up some sweet deal like in Nim's Island.
Hmmmm... Being stuck on a secret island with Gerard Butler.
My mission to get rid of stuff so that I can move into the woods someday, or an apartment befitting a starving artist is going well.

There being no rest for the wicked, despite my lack of employment, the month since school has ended has been anything but a vacation (although most of it has been fun); I am kind of hoping that the piddly little fifteen credits I am taking this fall will be a breeze (then again, I almost always think that, and it almost never turns out that way).
I have been:
backpacking for two days straight
reorganized my room completely
started becoming a neat person
started selling off my old books, video games, etc
getting better at knitting
perfecting my paper making technique
learning what kinds of books resell well
exploring ways to sell my designs/products to the public at large
and, in general, how to upcycle just about anything.

still to go:
finish the draft of a comic I doing with a friend
write a super awesome horror (of all things) story that I thought of while backpacking
get even better at knitting
set up a yard sale
get ripped
and so much more ><

I even have decided to start a blog... Yeah, it's still congealing in my brain, but can be found at [link] I hope to put up a bunch of tutorial and informative stuff, as well as some personal insights here or there. We shall see.